HICKORY (8:52am) – One of my youngest son’s favorite books is called “Cowardly Clyde.”  It’s a sweet Bill Peet book about a horse who has to face his greatest fears in order to save his friend’s life.

My Youngest Son's Favorite Book

On-air, over the last several months, it hasn’t always been easy to appear like everything’s okay.  Like Clyde in the book – I’d often find myself working hard to pretend like I was brave.

Because – and I’m going to be completely honest here – everything was not okay.

A television journalist’s job may seem simple to you.  After all, the critics might say, “all you have to do is read the teleprompter.”  But that’s just nonsense.

It’s a lot like saying all a basketball player has to do is “put the ball in the net.”  Or that all you have to do to cook a great meal is to “follow the directions.”  Great athletes, and great chefs would beg to differ.

On one particularly challenging day in recent months, I started getting texts from my closest girlfriends.  Text after text of encouraging, kind words.

In the book, “Cowardly Clyde,” the horse musters up his own strength to fight the terrible ogre.  He has to pretend he is brave, or his friend is going to get eaten. It’s the turning point in the horse’s life – a sweet story, and a fun take on the idea of “fake it ’til you make it, ” like we all must do in our lives sometimes.

But faking it only works so long in your life.  There are so many challenges we face each day – even the most blessed among us.  Like me.

On that day, when my husband told my friends I was going to need some encouragement, and my phone blew up with text messages, they all spoke to me.

But I kept re-reading one in particular, from my friend Kelly – She said she’d been praying Hebrews 10:35-39 for me.

Here’s how that reads:

35So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded.36You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. 37For in just a very little while,

“He who is coming will come and will not delay.

38But my righteous one[a] will live by faith.

And if he shrinks back,
I will not be pleased with him.”

39But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who believe and are saved.

On this Labor Day, as I look at the 15 different paths I could take on this new journey, the first one becomes very clear to me.

I have the opportunity for the first time in my life to share with you who I really am.  Not the girl you saw on TV.  But who I really am.

I may have looked to you like I had it all together.  Like I was confident, poised, and ready to take on the world.  But inside, many days, I was broken, hurting, and confused.

Now, I can’t explain to you in one blog post the whole of why that passage from the bible spoke to me so deeply.

If you don’t know Jesus, it may not make much sense.  And that’s okay.  Because if you’d allow me, I’d like to walk this path with you awhile.

I’d like to help you find the kind of courage that lasts, the kind that is rooted in something real and eternal – not the “fake it ’til you make it” kind.  Because you and I both know – that tank empties quickly.

Thank you, Kelly – for reminding me that day who I really am in Christ, and why his strength is all I need.  And thank you, Lisa for pointing me down the path of transparency.  I’m SO thankful for you.

4 Comments on “Courage

  1. Sending love and good thoughts your way. Thanks for your transparency. God will use it for His glory!

  2. Hi Tonia,
    Courage…A very real and personal subject to all of us, because without it none of the other virtues are possible!

    “I’d like to help you find the kind of courage that lasts, the kind that is rooted in something real and eternal – not the “fake it ’til you make it” kind. ”

    Knowing that God loves us and that we are doing our level best to honor Him and to walk according to our calling instills in us a confidence and a “self esteem” that serves us well on days when our enemy is working overtime to dis-courage us.

    • Thanks Alton – and nice to meet you! I’ve heard it recently called “God-esteem.” The idea that knowing who God is, is the most important thing. Because when we know who he really is – doesn’t it change entirely the way we look at everything – especially ourselves?

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